So yea, i found just about everything that was said about paris to be true. You can just watch any movie about the place and read it somewhere. The air of romance is everywhere, and it is the true romantic city. The Parisians and tourists are just so comfortable with themselves- not arrogant about it either. Its a wonderfully relaxing place, with lots of history and all the sights to boot.
I'll let my pictures speak for themselves, but they wont give you the magic of the air at the front door of the Sacre Coeur, or the electricity that's at the Eiffel tower when its lit up for the hour or the breeze by the Seine and the mists of the many fountains found around town. But i didnt get to kiss in paris, nor did i get to dance..I'll be back there soon; its a see you later paris, not an au revoir.
But why paris? what would i get out of it? For sure, I have some more of a reassurance about relaxing and humility. We all know Paris to be this great city, but the people there didnt give me the air as so. Its relaxed, and the many cafe's and sitdown spots say so. The deep history of just the city itself gives it some majesty and culture.
There's also something about paying more attention to detail, all of the sculptures and paintings and little details have dug into me and really push me to drive detail into my body of work as well.
As for Toys, sculptors have been making miniature versions of their creations for centuries. I mean today i get so impressed by the detail in some maquettes for anime figures and dolls, but back then..it was all hand carved in stone and with more detail!
I could learn a lot about color from the graffiti from different parts of the world, paris itself didnt have so much, but the outskirts had wonderful work, as did the germans on the way back from hamburg.
Paris was wonderful, and literally to that. Full of wonders for sure..but lets not stop there... I'll be back again for sure..but there is a whole world to see.
Monday, April 25, 2011
Monday, March 21, 2011
Still dreaming.
As of now, no plans to be in new york til christmas.
maybe the longest time away from home ever. But I'll always be a new yorker, and before that, the man who's feet never touch the ground.
10 years ago, maybe 9 i thought about this whole business in my life - becoming a 'millionaire', being wildly successful in some sort of venture. But i guess that would never have made me a better man, or even happy. I didnt know then that I would only do what my heart told me, and what i thought was right for me. For a while i was just a selfish brat, not wanting to do things that were uncomfortable, uneasy. There were the times when i thought the Robotics, the toys would never get me anywhere- only to my own happy place and that i'd be 40 years old, living with my mom. I'd be the quintessential 40 year old virgin, working a dead end job and worse of all, staring into the eyes of my disappointed mother day in and day out.
And then there were the moments of brilliance and courage, telling myself that i'd make it someday. That one day that passion would bring me everything i ever wanted. I dont know if those days have ever ended. In order for dreams to come true, you have to dream.
I still picture myself as an older gentleman perusing the streets of the bronx; with kids in some public school, causing trouble. Maybe they'd learn more than i did when i grew up, but i'd hope to be one of those dads who was cooler than his kids. More up to speed on everything, but eventually fall behind. I'd have all the toys i could ask for, and even more for the little runts i'd be raising. At times that dream didnt have any kids, but hey, who knows. But these days, i'd be the father who wasnt there that often. Always in Europe having some adventure, or working. In truth i'd probably pay good money to have the kids in some kung fu monastery haha! Its far away though, maybe just a fart in the wind.
In the next 5, maybe 10 years, I'd be more traveled, maybe another language under my belt - 2 possibly. I'd have danced in spain, kissed in paris, had a duel in rome. I could have prayed at the vatican, drove on an autobahn, climbed up an alp, and swam in a fjord. The northern lights would have grazed my skin, and the red light district would be under it.
I could do my job 'til i die though. Is this it ? Do i live happily ever after? And still asking the questions about whats next. Im still sort of young. I can still perfect my craft. To build the greatest thing i can build, to express myself so complete and honest, and call that my life's work. Some may already be able to say it, but i'd like to have a complete body of work to leave behind. And that ought to be what's next. Thats the dream.
So, its getting warmer out here. The office is brighter, the bricks fresh and sharp as if the machines knew it was spring. Lots of things to look forward to. No more waiting. One day i'll be gone, no warnings. As it should be. And back to work on Monday morning, more excited than i was on friday to leave. Still dreaming.
and forgive my grammar, i'm a designer not an english major. My blog dang it.
maybe the longest time away from home ever. But I'll always be a new yorker, and before that, the man who's feet never touch the ground.
10 years ago, maybe 9 i thought about this whole business in my life - becoming a 'millionaire', being wildly successful in some sort of venture. But i guess that would never have made me a better man, or even happy. I didnt know then that I would only do what my heart told me, and what i thought was right for me. For a while i was just a selfish brat, not wanting to do things that were uncomfortable, uneasy. There were the times when i thought the Robotics, the toys would never get me anywhere- only to my own happy place and that i'd be 40 years old, living with my mom. I'd be the quintessential 40 year old virgin, working a dead end job and worse of all, staring into the eyes of my disappointed mother day in and day out.
And then there were the moments of brilliance and courage, telling myself that i'd make it someday. That one day that passion would bring me everything i ever wanted. I dont know if those days have ever ended. In order for dreams to come true, you have to dream.
I still picture myself as an older gentleman perusing the streets of the bronx; with kids in some public school, causing trouble. Maybe they'd learn more than i did when i grew up, but i'd hope to be one of those dads who was cooler than his kids. More up to speed on everything, but eventually fall behind. I'd have all the toys i could ask for, and even more for the little runts i'd be raising. At times that dream didnt have any kids, but hey, who knows. But these days, i'd be the father who wasnt there that often. Always in Europe having some adventure, or working. In truth i'd probably pay good money to have the kids in some kung fu monastery haha! Its far away though, maybe just a fart in the wind.
In the next 5, maybe 10 years, I'd be more traveled, maybe another language under my belt - 2 possibly. I'd have danced in spain, kissed in paris, had a duel in rome. I could have prayed at the vatican, drove on an autobahn, climbed up an alp, and swam in a fjord. The northern lights would have grazed my skin, and the red light district would be under it.
I could do my job 'til i die though. Is this it ? Do i live happily ever after? And still asking the questions about whats next. Im still sort of young. I can still perfect my craft. To build the greatest thing i can build, to express myself so complete and honest, and call that my life's work. Some may already be able to say it, but i'd like to have a complete body of work to leave behind. And that ought to be what's next. Thats the dream.
So, its getting warmer out here. The office is brighter, the bricks fresh and sharp as if the machines knew it was spring. Lots of things to look forward to. No more waiting. One day i'll be gone, no warnings. As it should be. And back to work on Monday morning, more excited than i was on friday to leave. Still dreaming.
and forgive my grammar, i'm a designer not an english major. My blog dang it.
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Old habits die hard
Here i am.. So late in the evening and just watching anime, posing the hero factory figures.
But i still cant shake my bad habits. I was never a good student, homework really never stuck to me and I never minded doing anything until the last minute. Amongst all other things.
It makes me nervous to think about all that when i was never one to finish projects well. I have my projects and deadlines and stuff. But believing in something so deeply as i do now makes me really want to finish and finish well- if only to continue to better my craft. As an artist, thats all you can hope for right?
But i'm going home soon, just for a couple of days.
And then there's lent, maybe something to believe in. 40 days of some sort of devotion to something. Supposed to be sacrifice, but interpret it as your will.
Im hoping to cut up some old habits and hopefully add some new ones. Definitely need to bring back my resolve and I hope that my trip home will bring that back. I could use a muse.
But i still cant shake my bad habits. I was never a good student, homework really never stuck to me and I never minded doing anything until the last minute. Amongst all other things.
It makes me nervous to think about all that when i was never one to finish projects well. I have my projects and deadlines and stuff. But believing in something so deeply as i do now makes me really want to finish and finish well- if only to continue to better my craft. As an artist, thats all you can hope for right?
But i'm going home soon, just for a couple of days.
And then there's lent, maybe something to believe in. 40 days of some sort of devotion to something. Supposed to be sacrifice, but interpret it as your will.
Im hoping to cut up some old habits and hopefully add some new ones. Definitely need to bring back my resolve and I hope that my trip home will bring that back. I could use a muse.
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Getting comfortable - Something about the silence
Its been a while (Ha, funny reference on this one, think you can find it?) since i've updated..theres been a whole lot going on..and sometimes not.
I think i'm getting way too comfortable here and have to get back on my feet. I've noticed my language has changed, just way too informal. But maybe its a sign of settling in. I'm seeing the things i can do, where my strengths are, building the network of people. Its getting way too relaxed though. Maybe there needs to be some more tension, more push..more to do on my plate? Is it enough already that i've got so much? Im in the office for nearly 11 hrs per day, its a safe haven. Gotta have a food stash there though..i'd probably stay longer!
But things are coming around. Deadlines are looming, dependencies on so many other factors.
Still, remember to stop and smell the roses..no sense rushing.
And coming to a paradox, where i love the sounds and the symphony of white noise with people around yet i deeply cherish my me time. But i may need to spend some time on me, to work out, to develop and study. It comes at a time though when i may need the most company. Its so easy to get lost in the work and the passion, but we all need some human contact. Sometimes its too quiet, sometimes i need it.
And Since the last post..LEGO World Copenhagen, catching up Danish and a HUGE HUGE HUGE project. Trying to stay inspired, building and exploring.
check my flickr. www.flickr.com/1brick
and I ask my readers..whats your passion? What would you do if you could do anything you wanted ? What would you do just because you loved it, money or not ? Where are your dreams?
I think i'm getting way too comfortable here and have to get back on my feet. I've noticed my language has changed, just way too informal. But maybe its a sign of settling in. I'm seeing the things i can do, where my strengths are, building the network of people. Its getting way too relaxed though. Maybe there needs to be some more tension, more push..more to do on my plate? Is it enough already that i've got so much? Im in the office for nearly 11 hrs per day, its a safe haven. Gotta have a food stash there though..i'd probably stay longer!
But things are coming around. Deadlines are looming, dependencies on so many other factors.
Still, remember to stop and smell the roses..no sense rushing.
And coming to a paradox, where i love the sounds and the symphony of white noise with people around yet i deeply cherish my me time. But i may need to spend some time on me, to work out, to develop and study. It comes at a time though when i may need the most company. Its so easy to get lost in the work and the passion, but we all need some human contact. Sometimes its too quiet, sometimes i need it.
And Since the last post..LEGO World Copenhagen, catching up Danish and a HUGE HUGE HUGE project. Trying to stay inspired, building and exploring.
check my flickr. www.flickr.com/1brick
and I ask my readers..whats your passion? What would you do if you could do anything you wanted ? What would you do just because you loved it, money or not ? Where are your dreams?
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Saving Grace
I've never been so happy that a week was over.
I cut up my hand, broke my rice cooker, and separated from my relationship.
Not to mention still recovering from being sick, catching up on a weeks worth of work and this rain and fog doesnt help. My room is a mess, the food in the fridge is spoiling and the dishes are piling up. I want to scratch the stitches off my hand. I'm lacking motivation, hemorrhaging money, and the VPN is so slow now that I cant even watch a movie. My diet has been reduced to boiled eggs and ramen and left over chicken nuggets. And maybe I could let myself cry a little, but even that doesnt make any sense. The year has beaten me up, and we're only 16 days in. To top it off..its not just me, I share my troubles with others, but maybe they wont have a scar to remind them.
I guess i have my saving graces, bits of light cutting through the dreary fog. My work gives me reason and great friends here bring me company and comfort along with dinner and dessert at times. The prospect of travel and promise of exotic land give me hope. And continuing to grow and learn bring me peace. Even though I have already found someone who completes me, I relish meeting new people and reminiscing with old friends. As something ends, many things also begin.
My saving grace is the unknown again. My penance is my solitude.
haha..whatever happened to the LEGO stuff on this blog?
LEGO World Copenhagen in February. Building for that along with work should keep me busy. Looking to build fun, interactive things for the kiddies and well, just to show off a little.
I hope my friends at NYBA are doing well. Flickr is showing them well.
Built the LEGO Architecture Rockefeller Center. Its great to build on that scale and even better to point out my favorite spots on it. It was a good building experience and a nice remembrance of home.
I cut up my hand, broke my rice cooker, and separated from my relationship.
Not to mention still recovering from being sick, catching up on a weeks worth of work and this rain and fog doesnt help. My room is a mess, the food in the fridge is spoiling and the dishes are piling up. I want to scratch the stitches off my hand. I'm lacking motivation, hemorrhaging money, and the VPN is so slow now that I cant even watch a movie. My diet has been reduced to boiled eggs and ramen and left over chicken nuggets. And maybe I could let myself cry a little, but even that doesnt make any sense. The year has beaten me up, and we're only 16 days in. To top it off..its not just me, I share my troubles with others, but maybe they wont have a scar to remind them.
I guess i have my saving graces, bits of light cutting through the dreary fog. My work gives me reason and great friends here bring me company and comfort along with dinner and dessert at times. The prospect of travel and promise of exotic land give me hope. And continuing to grow and learn bring me peace. Even though I have already found someone who completes me, I relish meeting new people and reminiscing with old friends. As something ends, many things also begin.
My saving grace is the unknown again. My penance is my solitude.
haha..whatever happened to the LEGO stuff on this blog?
LEGO World Copenhagen in February. Building for that along with work should keep me busy. Looking to build fun, interactive things for the kiddies and well, just to show off a little.
I hope my friends at NYBA are doing well. Flickr is showing them well.
Built the LEGO Architecture Rockefeller Center. Its great to build on that scale and even better to point out my favorite spots on it. It was a good building experience and a nice remembrance of home.
Friday, December 31, 2010
Man in the mirror.
Its so easy to reflect on the year for me, and surely there were so many ups and downs. Definitely more ups though.
And so many lessons learned, new experiences and yadda yadda yadda. I can go look through this blog, my facebook, my LEGO creations and in the mirror for my reflection.
Let me again look forward on the year to come.
So many more things to learn and places to see. I look forward to making even more friends in strange places and eating the food that makes me happy. And here's to deepening bonds, truer love and amazing sights.
It was true, 2010 was an amazing year, a year that went by way too fast..and maybe things at the end just help put them in perspective. I leave the next year as an open door, even wider than before.
A good time to make fewer promises, but yet get more things done. Life is short, live it up. Here's to not always knowing where you're gonna end up, but having a blast getting there.
And so many lessons learned, new experiences and yadda yadda yadda. I can go look through this blog, my facebook, my LEGO creations and in the mirror for my reflection.
Let me again look forward on the year to come.
So many more things to learn and places to see. I look forward to making even more friends in strange places and eating the food that makes me happy. And here's to deepening bonds, truer love and amazing sights.
It was true, 2010 was an amazing year, a year that went by way too fast..and maybe things at the end just help put them in perspective. I leave the next year as an open door, even wider than before.
A good time to make fewer promises, but yet get more things done. Life is short, live it up. Here's to not always knowing where you're gonna end up, but having a blast getting there.
Thursday, December 23, 2010
3 months and a day
Sitting here waiting for my flight isnt so bad. I'm actually feeling a little hakuna matata these days. No worries; excited about paying my next months bills; excited about going home and just getting a break; paid again..
So its been 3 months and a day, feels a lot longer! theres been a lot, lot of changes, lots of progress and still lots of waiting. I've got most of the right paperwork, bank account, passport's still valid, all that good stuff. Met a great new set of internationals that i hope will be great friends in the future. Settled and striding at work. As my boss said, pushing forward!
I should try to be realistic, there are still lots of challenges ahead. Many more roads untraveled, at least by me. Though for a little while, i'd like to bask in a little bit of glory. I can now tell myself that it was a good idea to leave the DEP, a good idea to sacrifice successes for passion and a good idea to follow your heart. For now, it feels great, and i stand humbled by the half chances i've had to get here. A little hakuna matata.
But still have to get home for the holidays. Waiting to the tune of Terminator 2 and whatever else i can play in the background to pass the time. Its sure going fast. Here's to the next 3 months!
So, something I've made in the public domain..check out the little arm creation by me!
http://education.lego.com/en-gb/preschool-and-school/
So its been 3 months and a day, feels a lot longer! theres been a lot, lot of changes, lots of progress and still lots of waiting. I've got most of the right paperwork, bank account, passport's still valid, all that good stuff. Met a great new set of internationals that i hope will be great friends in the future. Settled and striding at work. As my boss said, pushing forward!
I should try to be realistic, there are still lots of challenges ahead. Many more roads untraveled, at least by me. Though for a little while, i'd like to bask in a little bit of glory. I can now tell myself that it was a good idea to leave the DEP, a good idea to sacrifice successes for passion and a good idea to follow your heart. For now, it feels great, and i stand humbled by the half chances i've had to get here. A little hakuna matata.
But still have to get home for the holidays. Waiting to the tune of Terminator 2 and whatever else i can play in the background to pass the time. Its sure going fast. Here's to the next 3 months!
So, something I've made in the public domain..check out the little arm creation by me!
http://education.lego.com/en-gb/preschool-and-school/
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