We've gotten quite a bit of snow in the last 8 days. I'd say its snowed at least 5 of the last 8 days at least a few hours each. Its quite the winter wonderland and its taken me out of my funk a little bit. Its still cold as shit, but strangely pleasant. I have some sort of comfort in it, although i'm still searching for the reason why. It just is.
The amount of work i've been given has really ramped up. I'd say its tripled if not quadrupled in the past few weeks. Deadlines are looming, creating arguments and proving thoughts and concepts..just another day in the life. Strangely i want more. Theres so much more to learn.
And its all coming to a head. Soon to come home and see how life has changed around me. I cant wait just to see everyone that i miss so dearly and yet still anticipating returning in the new year and beginning new.
I'm starting to find the balance here. It's still tough to do so, but Its getting better and hopefully will become second nature. I've made some friends here and they're all great people. Where will we all be in the next year?
Looking forward again, getting back on my feet.
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Monday, November 22, 2010
2 months - Still not ready
Just a few hours removed from my first two months away from home, i mean really away from home, and I stand amazed by how little i still know and how unprepared I was for this journey. But that's how we grow right? Getting thrown into the fire, and hopefully walkaway with meaningful scars.
I knew it would happen sooner or later, but I finally feel a little homesick. Maybe its the looming holiday that I'm missing. There's an air that's missing here around this time of year, and it's hit me harder than I thought it would. I honestly didnt prepare myself to miss thanksgiving. With all of the madness going on with the move, it totally slipped my mind and maybe thought that I could get through it. I'm sure i'll feel better at the end of the week and get to focus on my next 30 days or so before I go home for christmas.
That being said, I have a lot to be thankful for. Its been the most productive year of my life and surely the most life changing. I still can't believe i'm here where I am doing what i'm doing. The amount of experiences, good and bad this year really gave me a huge personal boost. Just all the support from my family and friends have been enough as well. I've also got a wonderful girlfriend, who's really been so good to me through all this too. Taking another step with reconnecting with my brother and hopefully it'll get better as the years go on. All of it bringing me back and remembering not to take any of this for granted. It can all come down so quickly, such is life. But i'm super thankful for it all hope everyone at home has a wonderful thanksgiving. I miss you all
I've been thinking about how unprepared i would be if I would buy a house for example. Its a valid thought at this stage in my life I think? I have no clue about it, and watching how people are just going through the motions with mortgages, loans, home repairs, and even something as simple as buying furniture! Its just more than I want to do, and so many other things to focus on. I do know that I want to build a wooden dummy at some point in my home life, what a silly thought right?
Surely i thought i could handle the separation in geography with Yvonne. Its so much harder than I thought. I find myself forgetting that she's 3000 miles away thinking she'll always be there when i'm ready to call or whatever and vice versa. Our time is limited already just by distance, and surely its been just a hard realization for me. Its on me to change my habits to make it work. She's been so supportive, but I've probably not been giving enough in return. Thanks for taking a look from outside for me..and I'll work harder at this.
I'm still not ready for all the craziness about to happen, all the adventures that i'll have. I'm still not ready for the many quiet nights, and silent dinners. I'm not ready for the successes and failures, trials and tribulations, fears and frustrations. Honestly, who is, and what fun would life be if i was.
I am ready to push forward, keep learning. Ready to take leaps of faith and jumps into deep water. Ready to create great things, change for the better and (at this hour...EAT.
and yes, the job is still fun even on a cold and hard monday morning.
I've built my first MOC since I moved here, check out the time lapse on my flickr account. (Ok, maybe not my first..but certainly the most independent one from my work stuff).
Happy thanksgiving again all, thanks for reading.
LeE
I knew it would happen sooner or later, but I finally feel a little homesick. Maybe its the looming holiday that I'm missing. There's an air that's missing here around this time of year, and it's hit me harder than I thought it would. I honestly didnt prepare myself to miss thanksgiving. With all of the madness going on with the move, it totally slipped my mind and maybe thought that I could get through it. I'm sure i'll feel better at the end of the week and get to focus on my next 30 days or so before I go home for christmas.
That being said, I have a lot to be thankful for. Its been the most productive year of my life and surely the most life changing. I still can't believe i'm here where I am doing what i'm doing. The amount of experiences, good and bad this year really gave me a huge personal boost. Just all the support from my family and friends have been enough as well. I've also got a wonderful girlfriend, who's really been so good to me through all this too. Taking another step with reconnecting with my brother and hopefully it'll get better as the years go on. All of it bringing me back and remembering not to take any of this for granted. It can all come down so quickly, such is life. But i'm super thankful for it all hope everyone at home has a wonderful thanksgiving. I miss you all
I've been thinking about how unprepared i would be if I would buy a house for example. Its a valid thought at this stage in my life I think? I have no clue about it, and watching how people are just going through the motions with mortgages, loans, home repairs, and even something as simple as buying furniture! Its just more than I want to do, and so many other things to focus on. I do know that I want to build a wooden dummy at some point in my home life, what a silly thought right?
Surely i thought i could handle the separation in geography with Yvonne. Its so much harder than I thought. I find myself forgetting that she's 3000 miles away thinking she'll always be there when i'm ready to call or whatever and vice versa. Our time is limited already just by distance, and surely its been just a hard realization for me. Its on me to change my habits to make it work. She's been so supportive, but I've probably not been giving enough in return. Thanks for taking a look from outside for me..and I'll work harder at this.
I'm still not ready for all the craziness about to happen, all the adventures that i'll have. I'm still not ready for the many quiet nights, and silent dinners. I'm not ready for the successes and failures, trials and tribulations, fears and frustrations. Honestly, who is, and what fun would life be if i was.
I am ready to push forward, keep learning. Ready to take leaps of faith and jumps into deep water. Ready to create great things, change for the better and (at this hour...EAT.
and yes, the job is still fun even on a cold and hard monday morning.
I've built my first MOC since I moved here, check out the time lapse on my flickr account. (Ok, maybe not my first..but certainly the most independent one from my work stuff).
Happy thanksgiving again all, thanks for reading.
LeE
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Learning New Languages
Even though everyone speaks English quite well here, there's still so much to learn!
Two weeks, just two weeks of Danish lessons have shown me just how hard the language is and how it is to really immerse myself into the culture. Its an exciting prospect, and a 'free' one. It's a journey well worth going on.
The LEGO Language is quite different as well. Parts don't have the names I'm used to. Modules instead of holes, elements instead of Bricks..really just SOP right? But there is quite a lot to learn here. The amount of Acronyms and initials for things could boggle the mind!
And the Dance, another style of salsa, its like learning to walk again. My head spins just as much as the turn patterns i'm trying to learn. But let it be just another language to learn. On top of the Danish, Spanish and Cuban salsa!
But like my favorite mediums, the universal languages of creativity, and movement - just a few more bricks to build with, and just a few more moves..
Two weeks, just two weeks of Danish lessons have shown me just how hard the language is and how it is to really immerse myself into the culture. Its an exciting prospect, and a 'free' one. It's a journey well worth going on.
The LEGO Language is quite different as well. Parts don't have the names I'm used to. Modules instead of holes, elements instead of Bricks..really just SOP right? But there is quite a lot to learn here. The amount of Acronyms and initials for things could boggle the mind!
And the Dance, another style of salsa, its like learning to walk again. My head spins just as much as the turn patterns i'm trying to learn. But let it be just another language to learn. On top of the Danish, Spanish and Cuban salsa!
But like my favorite mediums, the universal languages of creativity, and movement - just a few more bricks to build with, and just a few more moves..
Sunday, November 7, 2010
I'm coming on my 6th week, or maybe 7th..I'm starting to lose count.
Things are finally getting settled down. I've got all of the numbers I think I should have, a bank account, and a bunch of the stuff i should have for work in place.
Now its a matter of balancing work life and the personal life.
Its also balancing how to express myself properly as an employee here. You get a few more rules, and the typical work vocabulary to get used to. Interacting with AFOLS and my friends has me thinking about how I represent myself and also how I'm representing the company I work for. Don't get me wrong, I'm still an AFOL too, but being on the inside does change some things. Its just a time to be more mindful of your thoughts.
Work itself is work, more fun for me than the usual 9 to 5 i think. I am starting to get the routine a little. Its more of a structure than routine. Everyday is still different from the rest. Deadlines are still coming though and well, its fun to get it all done on time!
Life is getting pretty crazy over here, with the Grave Hill crew poker nights and apparent Wednesday night takeovers of the Highlander. Getting to know more and more people, its quite fun and it makes me feel like i'm in college again.
The long distance thing is pretty tough. Getting the time is really hard. Just spending some hours can be really tough. But i have to keep trying. Its gonna be a grand journey. Missing my baby for sure.
Things are finally getting settled down. I've got all of the numbers I think I should have, a bank account, and a bunch of the stuff i should have for work in place.
Now its a matter of balancing work life and the personal life.
Its also balancing how to express myself properly as an employee here. You get a few more rules, and the typical work vocabulary to get used to. Interacting with AFOLS and my friends has me thinking about how I represent myself and also how I'm representing the company I work for. Don't get me wrong, I'm still an AFOL too, but being on the inside does change some things. Its just a time to be more mindful of your thoughts.
Work itself is work, more fun for me than the usual 9 to 5 i think. I am starting to get the routine a little. Its more of a structure than routine. Everyday is still different from the rest. Deadlines are still coming though and well, its fun to get it all done on time!
Life is getting pretty crazy over here, with the Grave Hill crew poker nights and apparent Wednesday night takeovers of the Highlander. Getting to know more and more people, its quite fun and it makes me feel like i'm in college again.
The long distance thing is pretty tough. Getting the time is really hard. Just spending some hours can be really tough. But i have to keep trying. Its gonna be a grand journey. Missing my baby for sure.
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