The first month

I celebrated my first month with a proper steak..damn it was good.

Harsh realities..and good problems to have.
Its been a tough month for sure. Readjusting to a new environment, getting integrated into society, and finally living on my own. I've faced harsh realities and found all of those things I've taken for granted at home. Maybe, maybe i've told myself that i was prepared to do this, and you can never know how it really is until you're there. I'd like to think i've been humbled by my previous experiences but maybe i've been further humbled by living on my own. My age doesnt forgive me, it thrusts me into life and pushes me to hurry up and experience things. I can't forget to enjoy it.
Its been good though. I can't say it feels like home just yet, but its getting there. There's a level of settling in and finding a balance, and it doesnt happen over one month. Everything is still in flux, at anytime i feel like i could move to a better place (and it better be a better place). I'm still figuring out what i need to spend on basic necessities and food and all that good stuff. Somethings cost more than others, and some things cheaper. I'm not worrying about commuting for the first time in 7 years. Everything is really exciting and a new experience, I cant wait for more.

A sense of purpose, a feeling of accomplishment.
How many people can feel incredibly excited to wake up Monday morning and go to work, hoping 5pm doesnt come. Ok, maybe i could stand some 5pm's ..or whatever time i HAVE to leave the office. My job asks me to be creative at a high level, on demand and to be able to withstand, on a professional level, criticisms and limitations. Its incredibly exciting! My medium has rules and regulations, and is a perfect system to allow these levels of creativity.
Its my current role, my new contribution to society and the world as a whole. I have a sense of purpose and a reason to wake up. A reason to be afraid that something might happen to me in the simple fact that I cant get to express myself if it does.
I got here by doing things I've wanted to do and forgetting about what people think, what kind of salary i had, and all that usual mumbo jumbo. Getting here was an accomplishment on its own. Having people notice the things i've done, the culmination of work over the last few years- its and added bonus.

Staying hungry.
I can't preach enough about staying hungry and pushing for more. What's the next accomplishment? What's next, what's the goal to achieve? Seeing all of Europe? Trying more Beers? Going around and giving back to the the Family and the world ?
For now, as a short term thing, I want to make it to a TED Conference. To share minds with people, and listen and get inspired. But who knows. There's still so many things to do, so much more LEGO to build. I still want to make a truly signature piece. I refuse to let my best be behind me! Stay hungry..there's always more. I've got to get back in shape for sure!

Missing my baby..
Just want to say i miss my baby. Its been tough, but I'll be home soon.

The first month. A LEGO Designer. A citizen of the world.